Today i was going through some of my old pics, just seeing the changes have happened with me and around me. How a boy emerged into a young man. Even though change is law of life, its only going to be one way.
When i was a child, i used to have comic book each and every week. Used to read lot of stories and imagine myself in those stories. The brilliance of chintu, the detective stories, chacha chaudhary etc etc. Those were the days when never put my head into studies and all, but still i stood first in class.
Then slowly my mind started growing with my age, i started playing outdoor games. Lot more interests came into general competition between classmates in case of elocation, essay, dance, games etc. Those made me to get myself expose to outside world. But still from inside i was like a batman of my dark dream nights !!!!!!!!
Then things changed up little bit, i came to secondary education, there came the pressure from all the sides. Those were the days which are going to decide my career. Those were the first steps which make me to lead in some or other way. Bat ball become maths, football as science and drawing as social studies.
THERE WAS A KID INSIDE ME SAYING LEAVE ALL THESE, GO OUT AND LIVE YOUR WAY YOU WANT!!!!!!!....
As the human nature, never tend to be different than people around you. It want to show that it is better than whatever people do around you, nor going to some different way in what it want to be.
So finally i completed my school education and entered into river of knowledge from small pond. Initially i was very happy, since no more compulsory lectures, no more uniforms, no homework. But slowly got to know, its more than the earlier. Its like a bunch of flowers and you have to choose all to make a good combination and prioritize some flowers. With new friends and new world around me, mind was filling with lot of thoughts. There was also its second stone or i can say second last stone to make sure what i want to be in life.
BUT I STILL THINK DID I MADE A RIGHT CHOICE, DO I WANTED TO BE LIKE THIS OR SOMEONE ELSE!!!!!!!!!!
Once the midterm got over, everyone went mad in preparing for competitive exams which were leading to so called GREAT COLLEGES of my nation. Again going with human nature i went for these. As per my ability & luck i got into some good college.
I was going out of my town, leaving all my old friends ( which are no more old now) thinking that i am missing everything for something. Then i got to know another nature of human, adaptation.
The very next month , i was in my town for some festival. I was hoping all my friends were eager to see me. I had little bit of bad luck in that case. So i also need to go on same way >>> ADAPT TO NEW THINGS
Oh my new life in a new city. I was a free bee. Free from each and everyone who were closely attached to me. New things come with some disadvantages also. Constraints of life got added up. Bit by bit has to depend on myself in decision making. No sense of good bad. Just go on way what you see.
The age also have some effects on mind. It makes u laugh, cry, go crazy and be serious sometimes. The common problem with youth has occurred to me also. The fantasy which makes opposites to attract and get distract.
The 99% of result applied to me also in this case. Nevertheless i diverted my mind to some other side, still there was sound coming from inside that i have failed.
Sounds strange but, there was a message.
How the days went off, when we used to say whatever we wanted in straight way without hesitation. Now its like need to think lot from other s side before saying anything. Why's this, can't we be different.!!!!!!!!!!!!
Clock ran day, month, year and finally out of student life. Came to total rest corporate life. There are so much good things in this life, but i lost my freedom of thinking.
None of people had come out of that thinking and making something different, Even though i know, I am very worst in using SUPERNATURAL WORDS in blog and very bad narrator,I do it. Since i like in doing this. It makes me to rewind things and put it in right place if possible.
Are the people around us thinking like this way !!!!!!!!!! this shouldn't be the criteria.
Today also i do love to do things i did earlier. I go for outing, i do sketch, i sing dance. But as the environment says, you need to do things as other to live and fill your bloody stomach, which does nothing but grows day by day !!!!!!
Sometimes i feel crazy and confused about what am i writing , title suits its or not. Finally get ended up making no difference, Since i like it the way it is,whether people like or not.
Its not an end, still there are many things popping outside my mind to drop here... just difference of time...........
